Drawing by Marianne Carduner
No Longer Waiting
Since I was little, I wanted to draw and be an artist like my grandpa. I always struggled with myself, not believing I was any good. I took a class here and there and always found it deeply satisfying to be able to put something down on paper. But I never did more than that, feeling frustrated by a lack of confidence in my skill and ability and the lack of family support.
Recently, everything in my life started falling away from me – work, finances, home, people – and friends took me, their home becoming a refuge in this downfall. 1 ½ years ago I finally stopped trying to make something happen in order to go deep within myself and what was happening, in order to allow whatever was happening to happen and allow whatever wanted to come forward to do so. Art showed up. For the past 9 months I have been doing something everyday, even if it is only one sketch and asking for supplies at Christmas…














